something about today really got me back in the slumps. it amazes me how little it takes for me to flip moods so easily. it was just another day too. wake up at 11, run, school, more school, now work. could be the sleep issue again. for the last week now i wake up hourly each night. not sure what it is. been having lots of dreams about tom too. usually it involves him hating me to death. its such a strange feeling because of all the people i know, he is prolly the only to not hate me once in his life. not sure what the dreams mean, but they obviously don't put me in a good mood once i wake up. i feel so overwhelmed with school right now. maybe this is my burnout finally hitting me. i want to drop my race & minority class and just take it next year. its too much busy work and i just can't take it now. i still want a life in this big mess, but 16 credits is killing me. still haven't decided yet on that issue, but we'll see. i'd hate to leave mike alone in the class. he and i have such a good time in between classes. and i know i can do this class with my eyes closed and it'll be an easy A, but i'm just afraid i'll crack in the middle of the semester.
got really cold today. so many clouds on the mountains that i'm sure it had to of snowed just a little. i can't wait for winter to start. i can't believe i just said that. i'm usually the most anti-winter/snow person out there. but i think it'll be a nice winter. i'm really looking forward to eggnog. mmm, eggnog!! that stuff should be sold year round. if i could hook it up to an IV on my arm i probably would. soooo good, yet soooo bad. as are much of life's delicacies.
tomorrow we drive to salt lake and scope out my big/crazy plans for sunday/monday. then off for a much needed haircut and hopefully a movie before i'm back at this dump i call work.
this past week i saw two, count em two fresno shirts. they are the kind that you'd buy at american eagle. like the kind of shirts that say wilson high school wrestling team or something like that. $25 faded shirts that are supposed to look like you bought them for $1.50 at a thrift store. funny that they say fresno though. the one said: Fresno, FresYes! kinda dumb cuz i'm sure these queers have never even been to that stupid cow town. speaking of those great times, kristin my ex from eons ago sent me some pics of my high school days there. wow, my hair was funny. good times though. weird seeing the peeps again. i have this image of them all in my head of the way they were back in '96, but i know they all probably look different today. and i'm sure no one knows anyone anymore. all such good friends, scattered as dust. as T says, "yeah well, what can you do?"
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